Sunday, August 22, 2021

Chapter II

The detective 

I crack open a beer and look at this shit heel of a case on my desk. It’s a front page headline of a newspaper and I know it will be my responsibility to figure. I fondle my badge and think how I am the smartest man on the force and how everyone knows it from the janitor to the governor. There is something about this case that irks me. It’s on the black side of town.

First thing I see when I walk in is the red on the wall and the first thing I smell is the iron smell of fresh blood. A mouse skitters behind a mahogany dresser and I reach for my holster. Like a rush of blood to my eyes I notice the dead woman’s flush red lips.

To regain focus I light a cigarette. My armpit drips sweat and I scratch the top of my head. The room is too dark. This room gives me the creeps. I refocus my mind on the sound of a mouse behind the dresser and try to remember what I had for breakfast.

I had a bagel and cream cheese with orange juice not coffee because I was going to get a Red Bull on the drive over to the crime scene. The dead woman with the red lips lies on a queen sized bed. I can hear a conversation downstairs. The toe nails on her feet are the same color as the lipstick on her mouth.

Black people talking downstairs make it hard to think. This place reminds me of places I had been to as a kid. When you were a kid you could go anywhere with anyone. If I was a black guy I could come back here tonight and have myself a time. These aren’t bad guys who run this joint and obviously it attracts good looking women.

I light another cigarette. I don’t know why I smoke these things. I also don’t know why this woman is dead. I also don’t know why she is so attractive. This room smells like piss.

Or is that just the smell of this cigarette? Cigarettes always smell of piss. Why do I smoke these things? What would the woman look like without the sheet over her?

It looks amazing. The perfectly white sheet over an immaculate woman lying on top of a blood-stained bed sheet gives off a very pleasing aesthetic. Maybe the murderer thought so as well. The room smells like my cigarette and reeks of lye. The floorboards although old are the only thing clean in the entire room save the top bedsheet and my record.

I could use a whiskey at the bar downstairs. A pressure is beginning to give me a migraine. Is it bad juju to share an ashtray with a murderer and his mistress? Anyways the husband is back at the station with his high-dollar attorney and wants a report more desperately than my superiors do.

Oh, the ceiling is clean as well. I like her perfume. God, I am tired, I could use another Red Bull. I could use something stronger than a Red Bull. Too bad I won’t ever know what kind of perfume that is.


A beautiful day

To walk down the street

& look at trees

But there is murder in the air


Let us laugh &

Let us joke &

Smile shit faced grins

All is good &

All is golden

With this new murder in the air


The Deputy

She was shot through the stomach. She was shot through the stomach in this hotel room on the black side of town above this bar. She was shot through the stomach in this hotel room on the black side of town above this bar during the day. Then the murderer went down the stairs and killed one of the black owners at the bar and stole money out of the cash register.


Full ashtray. Mahogany dresser. Blood on the wall. Floor washed with lye.  Clean bed sheet. Blood stained bed sheet. Clean ceiling. Mouse under dresser. This seven-figure looking broad on the bed, dead.


Marlboro and Camel cigarette butts in the ashtray. One must be from the detective. Why do people smoke cigarettes? I’ve always thought they reeked of piss. This mouse under the dresser probably knows the whole story but he is talking as much to the cops as the black guy who runs this place.


I’ve been on the police force for a couple years and never been promoted. Stuck with each grunt job that they can make up. Sometimes though they can come up with some dirty shit. “Eat your wheaties today, we have got a body we are going to need you to throw in a river.” Like I could eat a bowl of Wheaties.


Wheaties are just a step above grape nuts. Being a grunt police officer like myself is a step above being a mobster. The police ain’t as bad because they don’t run the entirety of the organization off of causing crimes, just some of it. Like us cops didn’t kill this woman but we are dumping her body into a river instead of taking it to forensics.


This is a nice place. Shame this crime had to happen in an establishment like this. Good decent black folk run this show. If I had more black friends I could come down here and have a time.


I might get some cigarettes after this. The woman only weighs a couple hundred pounds. She ain’t fat by any means but she is dense. In this body bag it’s like I am taking out the laundry. Husband left a hefty donation for the chamber of commerce.


“Appreciate it if you would clean it up nice and tidy like.” “Things were great when it started.” “Can’t stand to see my social status slip farther than it already has.” Yes sir Bob, me neither. That’s why I carry your wife around in a body bag in my trunk.


In the tv shows when a guy does something like not have his wife’s dead body sent into forensics it’s a big blaring clue that he is a prime suspect for the murder. She was and is dolled up real nice as well. Did he fuck her and then kill her? Or just kill her? What a creep show.


No one says a damned word about anything. The detective. The husband. The chief. The black guy at the bar dressed as a white guy. The mouse. Just that I should eat some nasty cereal and tidy things up. 


“You have a job to do and you had better let yourself do it.” Like hell. The detective could tell the chief that the mouse told the black man dressed as a white guy that the husband had told him that I was the one who slept with and killed his wife, the black business partner and took the money. Since it is me and my squad car and a woman’s body sinking to the bottom of a river I wouldn’t give a damn if a mouse did tell a lie like that.


The husband killed his wife and then because he had just killed his wife he went and made love to her, aces high like, and since he was shitting in high cotton, he killed a black man for kicks downstairs and stole money to feel like a teenager again. Don’t give me a raise or give me a title though because I’m untrustworthy and I’m a loose cannon. What am I going to eat for lunch today? KFC or Popeyes? Maybe I’ll just get some smokes and eat KFC or Popeyes for dinner.


Morbid eyes

Morbid lips

Morbid breath

Morbid kiss

Morbid sex

Morbid legs

I can see morbid thighs

Morbid lung

Morbid tongue

Morbid dreams of Jung

Morbid loss

Morbid cost



Wednesday, August 11, 2021

Chapter I

 Piss fills my lungs. In the dead silence my match was lit and still hate the taste of tobacco. The bed is filled with detachment from fulfilled attachments. The exchange of niceties rise from the floorboards. Back and forth, back and forth like a gentleman’s game of ping-pong or skilled tennis players. This cigarette is yet to impress me.

The niceties don’t slow as I wonder how they do it I reach for my holster and exhale smoke into the room, a la French, and prefer my skill set to theirs in general although the familiarity of their banter beckons me in this moment.

In fact I have come to hate this room more than my cigarette. I cough as smoke is stuck in my lungs and remove the gun from it’s holster to balance myself. Cigarettes. I swear they put piss in these things. I wish she was still here. An angel by my side never disloyal and as close as a sister and a better fuck than any porno.


Red on the wall and smell of iron is what the mouse tells me. Into the room she greets me with the kiss of death. Her lip lock demands I listen to the story of her murder.


The mouse sees that her ghost has got the story from here and retreats to it’s home beneath the mahogany dresser only to comment from time to time with slurries within the wall.  


Her lips suck the life out of me as she places my cold hands on her deathly frozen breasts and the icy tips of her fingers close around my warm cock and I know she wants me inside her dead carcasse. Her bloody body draws me towards the bed. Suddenly I get the sensation of being naked little boy in the presence of a mature older woman.


He eastern star of my great great grandmother comes to mind unexpectedly. I wish I wasn’t alone in this woman with this gorgeous still figure lying disgraced in front of me. I feel as though I am in over my head. If she was alive she would be beckoning me to fuck her without a condom so as to give her a child and a future but she is not alive, so no seductive calls associated with movements occur. 


A wave of confusion overwhelms my mind. The loss of life placed in my hands is staggering. I stagger like I have been hit in the chest and my hands flail without the command of my mind. I have to get out of here. I need to get out of this room.


I will die in this room with her if I can’t pull myself together. Her naked body has lost it’s glow. I have no idea who she is. Her eyes open. I jump. I check her pulse because she is not breathing. Nothing. I close her eyelids. I open her eyelids. I close her eyelids. The door slams behind me.


I just want to fuck her one more time. To eat her out. To kiss her mouth. That is all over now. The only passion I will know now is to fuck a man. I have never even touched a man in a sexual way before. She was all I’ve ever needed.


As I walk out of the room a tear falls down my face as I look at my beloved, wife of ten years, bloody corpse one last time.


I walk down the stairs and there are two black men wearing white face. I walk over and shoot one with my gun. The ceiling above the cash register is dripping blood. The other man puts a glass away and takes a shot of Hennessy and washes his face. I empty the cash register and light a match.


The door to hell

Is always there

It cannot be destroyed or hid


The door to hell

Is always there

With an open lid


The door to hell

Becomes the cross

A man carries all day long


The door to hell

Becomes a ring

Inside a woman’s dream