I have been a damned miserable son of a bitch for about as long as I can remember. I don’t have enough money. I don’t have enough status. I don’t have enough WOMAN! SEX! Drugs and rock and roll. Pursuing these things whole heartedly for as long as I can remember except for the occasional perusal of love before it dies young has left me with more money, status and vice than I started with but only in the way of experience because as Anthony Green of Circa Survive suggests, “Accomplishments are transient.”
I have this innate ability to tend towards excess, exhilaration and acceleration so since I am a damned miserable son of a bitch on a long habitual streak of pursuing things that are beneath the domain of the prince of darkness than I only know of one way to become an even more miserable son of a bitch besides falling in and out of love again is to embrace Jesus Christ through my Christian faith. If a person is suffering because of their worldly condition than it has been my experience there is no quicker way to raise even more hell in their life than introducing the moral agent of faith into the realm of darkness.
I will turn to Christ because I can’t beat a certain boogeyman in my life and lo and behold this shining of a light in a dark place is certain to awaken every goblin, troll, and orc in the building. Come one and come all. What is even worse is when a person is pursuing money, status and corruption ruthlessly and decides to summon Jesus Christ for help in reaping this plunder. How self-destructive. Yes, so let’s get miserable, lets get it for all the son of a bitches out there! Welcome to Bible Study!
Do not grieve, wise warrior! It is better for each man that he avenge his friend than to mourn him much.
-Beowulf
I had a faith that was part of different communal bodies. When I became a man I realised that there was a relative gap between my worldly wealth and the rest of the people in the community. To my shame I decided to pursue worldly wealth on my own. My sins, mistakes, and corruption have become my own to take responsibility for and thus any faith that I can muster shall also be mine. I will not mourn my faith but avenge it.
If you can relate, or find faith an interesting subject I invite you to read the Gospels of Jesus which are the first four books of the New Testament. They contain the actual words of Jesus and His word is the Word. If you find pursuing faith in community to be a community you would like to engage in amongst people who are broken and messed up I would suggest AA. Alcoholics Anonymous is a very bizarre group of people who are most like the early church of Acts than anything else I have come across.
If you would like to dive into the deep end of my my thoughts on Faith then we will dive into the deep end of the ocean somewhere above the surface of Marianas Trench and start with the book of Isaiah chapter one. Hope you have enough oxygen.
